cause you left me hangin
and i can't deny
i dropped my head in my hands
and i broke down and cried.
i'm tired of sittin and
waitin to hear
that you fucked my best friend
cause your mind wasn't clear.
but don't take all the blame
cause he's just a guilty.
he was like my big brother
and that just kills me even more.
i can see you and hear you
you're moaning his name
and i'm trying to figure out
just what i have gained
from sittin and waitin
just to find out
that you fucked my best friend
so i'm not around
any more.

i'm not alright.
so you don't have to ask.
i can't just take this
and put it in the past.
i love you more
than any words can express.
i've never felt more happy
than with your head against my chest.
my eyes are swolen;
my clothes are drenched in smoke.
i don't know that i've ever
felt this alone.
i tried for six months
to get just two days.
and they were so amazing
in so many ways.
i've screwed up so much,
but never have i quit.
it's just so hard,
how do i deal with it?
i made so many sacrifices
and defended all my beliefs,
even when your best friends
were telling me to leave.
i've held your hand
and kissed your head,
you wrecked my heart
and then my bed.
you said you want a fresh start,
so what am i to do?
i guess my plans are ruined;
the ones where i wait for you
to turn your life around
and maybe then come back,
why is it that God
can never cut me any slack?

"Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw, I'm scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you." - Dirty Dancing damn so not to sound gay but that is a good quote.